tomorrow is surgery!

ahhhh so stoked, excited, nervous! wish me luck. =]

SURGERY DATE!

it's happening. July 9th is the big day. i can't freaking WAAAAIT! 

i passed!

so, i was cleared by the psychologist to have the surgery. the surgeon's office got the form and they have sent it on to my insurance people. just waiting to hear back from them and i will schedule my date!  hopefully it will be early july...fingers still crossed! =D

Psychological Evaluation!

so, my psychological evaluation is scheduled for the 10th of may. after this evaluation, they will send the report to my surgeons office and from there, all we're waiting for is approval! then it'll be time to set a date. i'm pretty sure my surgery will be in mid-july! woop woop. i'm kind of nervous about a psychological evaluation. i am a psych masters student and going to the psychologist freaks me OUT. haha doesn't make mush sense i know. i guess i'm worried i won't pass. i'm a psych student, i should know all the tricks right? haha i'm kidding, i know there are no tricks and i know i am stable enough to go through with this. just anxious! but definitely excited and ready.

appointment!

so, my insurance goes through as of tomorrow and the surgery will officially be covered by the insurance company. i've made my appointment with my surgeon for april 9th! not sure where things go from there, but i'm pretty sure i'll only need a psych eval after that, then we are ready to set a date. crazy! i'm SO excited. these months just can't go by fast enough. :)

things are happening

today i went to my doctor and told her i was thinking about weight loss surgery. she told me she thought i would be an awesome candidate and honestly thought i would succeed because she knows i have the right mindset and she's seen me battle weight since i started going to her. she is awesome. i actually enjoy going to her and am really motivated. she said she was excited for me and would be me up 100% for whatever i needed. she also recommended me to a surgeon in the area. i've made my consultation appointment for monday! one thing she did mention was that she thought the sleeve would be better for me because i am so young and it's less invasive. we shall see though! regardless, i'm so glad things are moving. also, it snowed today and i got to spend time with my two nieces. i have to say it was a pretty great day. 

until next time, <3

step 1 (pics post)

tomorrow i'm going to see my primary physician to inquire about weight loss surgery and get her recommendation for a surgeon. i literally can't wait. on my three hour drive from school to home home (where my doctor is) i got the idea to look at old photos and see how much my weight has yo-yoed over the years. i decided i'd put them on here because why not? it's a good reminder as to why i want this so bad. also, after going through my photos it is really sad to think about how awfully i thought of myself in high school and even through college. i'm at my highest weight i've ever been at the current moment. to look through those pictures from high school and remember the thoughts i had about myself is really quite sad....siiiiigh. anyway, let's do this. IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER.

things i realize 

it's nearly impossible to find a picture of my legs (i never let it happen)

i really ballooned over this past year

i'd do anything to be the size i was in high school when i really "hated" my body

haha not much has changed 

                                                                  (junior year prom)

(moving into my dorm freshmen year...i remember being so insecure this day because of my weight)

summer after sophomore year (got broken up with)

junior year 

                                                                      senior year

summer after college 

                                                                   christmas 2012 :(